Sen choked on his tears, starting to hiccup, holding that pillow tighter, clutching at it like a lifeline. "I... I just want him to love me the way I love him... I want to be able to lay and talk to him without fear of arguing every time I open my mouth... I can talk to Norman about my dreams, my fears, my feelings... So why can't I do that with Sword? Why can't we just be a normal couple? Why does it have to be so hard? It's killing me inside!"