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Who: Sword, Sen
When: Afternoon?
Where: Kain's Office
What: Sekret Meeting
Rating: TBA

Sen hoped Sword had got his message. It was hard to get messages to the other with so many watching over their every move like hawks. He sat in Kain's office, tapping a pen against the desk nervously.

He knew that Sword wouldn't be happy with recent events, but he truly thought he was doing the right thing.

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Sword had got the message from Kain. And slowly made his way to Kain's office. He finally reached and walked in. He grunted out of pain as he closed the door. He turned and made his way to the chair with some difficulty.

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Sen instantly stood. His first thought was to run over and cling and not let go, but upon seeing the pain Sword was in, he decided against it. He walked over to the chair, sitting on the arm. "Sword... I'm so sorry... I thought I'd lost you."

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Sword didn't even look at Sen and he shifted away from him, "Well, you didn't kill me if that's what you mean." He sighed, "So what did you want to see me about?"

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Sen frowned a little when Sword moved away from him. "I screwed up... I'm sorry! I know that doesn't take the pain away, but you're alive! That's all that matters!"

He moved then to stand infront of Sword, reaching up to touch his cheek. "I just wanted to see you so bad, and I knew here would be safe."

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Sword jerked his face away from Sen's hand and remained silent. He really didn't have anything to say to him. After a very long moment he said, "So is that everything then?" He moved to stand, but fell back down when the pain proved to be too great.

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The Japanese man, moved to kneel infront of the chair. "Take it easy, okay? You're still recovering. Why don't we go lay on the bed? It'll be more comfy."

He reached out his hand, slipping his fingers through Sword's. "Come on, Sword. No one will walk in, we don't have to worry."

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Sword yanked his hand away, "You sure that's such a great idea? Shut call?" He said coldly, still not looking at Sen.

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The way Sword said the words made them sound dirty, cheap, also cutting into Sen's heart. He grabbed Sword's jaw, forcing the man to look at him. "I'm no Shut call... I'm merely the cushion keeping the seat warm until the rightful king returns."

He frowned a little, looking into Sword's eyes. "Do you really think I'd take something that important away from you?"

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Sword looked away, "I don't know anymore, Sen. Can I really trust you? Or this just another illusion here at the UGH?" His words were still just as cold, "I was such an idiot for thinking that you were the one person here who'd never betray me..." He could help it but a couple tears fell down his cheek.

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Seeing those tears however, cut deeper than any words could. He cupped the man's cheeks, brushing those tears away with his thumbs. "Shhh, don't cry Sword. I'm not betraying you, it's all part of this whole mess I've gotten us into."

He knelt up, placing a soft kiss to Sword's lips, barely ghosting them. "We've got to stay strong until this blows over, then things will go back to normal, you'll be the Shutcall and I'll be your bitch... Give it a little longer? I love you, so much."

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Sword pushed Sen away and managed to stand up this time. Though the pain was almost unbearable, and he had to lean against the desk, a hand immediately going to the source of the pain. "How can I trust you? How do I know that you'll give me my job back? How do I know that you really do love me? How do I know that you're not on their side and you're not working against me as well?"

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Sen frowned, feeling hurt at being pushed away, once more moving to stand infront of Sword. "I... don't know how I convince you... I guess all I can do is hope you'd have a least a little faith in me."

He took a deep breathe. "Besides... If you don't trust me, the one losing out will be you." He knew it was a risky card to play, but it was worth a try. "Afterall, you walk out of here without trusting me and you have nothing, however - I'd have your job, your men, Norman. I'd survive... You'd be eaten by lonliness. But if you trust me... you'll have your job, and me..."

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Sword snorted, "I'd kill myself before I let that happen." It was true. In fact he had junk waiting for him when he got back from this little meeting of Sen's.

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Sen wrapped his arms around Sword's neck then, trying not to lean on his wound. "Sword... take a chance, trust in me, just this once?" He said, pressing a hard kiss to the man's lips.

"We can make this place our paradise, together."

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Sword could help but kiss Sen back. Not when Sen kissed him like that. So Sen wanted to make UGH their paradise?

"How exactly are we gonna do that? You keep fucking Norman and I just sit on my high horse and wait for you to get bored with him and come back to me?"

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He saw red, slapping Sword clean across the cheek. "Don't! Don't you ever talk about Norman and I like that! I'm not going to get bored with him, he's my best friend!"

"The only reason I started sleeping with him was because you can't open up to me! You're so cold, all the time!" He hissed, eyes filling with tears.

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Sword snorted, "What do you want me say to you? You want me to tell you that I can picture in some little country house with a dog and couple kids maybe?" He said the words with extreme sarcasm. He couldn't tell Sen that he had actually pictured it like that before.

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Sen turned away from Sword then, folding his arms across his chest. "No! I just... Sometimes... I wish you'd let me in more... into your heart, your thoughts."

He let out a heavy sigh. "We're supposed to be lovers... yet, I feel like I'm nothing but a toy for you to pick up and put down when you feel like it."

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"You are in my thoughts, Sen. Every fucking day. Why the hell do you think I get so damned angry every time you talk about Norman the way you do? Every time I see you with him? Did you ever think about that? About what it does to me?" Sword laughed bitterly and shook his, "You know what? Nevermind. I'm the big tough Shut call, right? Who would have thought that I could have feelings?" He finally stood and began walking towards the door. He tried so hard to ignore the pain, but failed miserably. He went to lean against the wall but faltered and slid to the ground.

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"Perhaps you should try showing some of those emotions. You don't have to be an icy wall, not around me. You don't have to put on a tough front. I wouldn't think you were weak."

Despite having so much anger boiling inside of him, he was instantly at Sword's side when he hit the ground, snaking an arm around him for support.

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"Sen...." He turned so his back was against the wall and clung to Sen's shirt, "I just.... I wish we weren't here. I wish we were on a beach somewhere. Maybe have a beach house. Away from all this drama... Away from Norman." He rested his forehead on Sen's chest as he clung to his shirt, "I can't take it anymore..."

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He frowned a little, stroking Sword's hair softly. "One day.. we'll escape from here, we'll be together under the sun."

He held the man, feeling guilty for causing this pain. "Sword... Norman isn't the threat you see him as. He's my friend, yes, and I care for him. But... I started sleeping with him so you would pay me more attention."

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Sword let out a small sob and just clung on to Sen. Everything catching up to him and he let himself seem small and vulnerable. His body shaking as he silently sobbed. "I don't want you to leave me..."

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He knew he shouldn't but he couldn't help but chuckle soft. He stroked Sword's hair more. "You're the one who was walking to the door, baka."

He hooked his fingers under Sword's chin, tilting his face up, forcing the other to look at him. "I have no intentions of leaving you."

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"Then why are you constantly with him? Why did you take over my job as shut call? Why did you almost kill me?" At this point Sword was just rambling, not really making any sense. He also stopped paying attention what he was saying.